I check surfline and the waves are good. Really good. Suddenly, the anxiety blender gets turned on inside my stomach and my expectations start to fire. My irratibility level soars because all I want to do is get in the water. I grab my board, my suit and a towel and put the pedal to the floor, feeling like a little child going to Disneyland for the first time. The red lights kill me. Just kill me. But finally I get to creek. I score a spot at the library so I don't have to pay for parking. I put on my suit and start jogging. I tell myself I'm jogging like a fool because it will help me to get warmed up so I can stretch and prevent injury, but deep down it's cause I'm all giddy inside and just purely stoked to see how good the waves are. The anxiety builds as I get closer and closer to the first sight of the waves..... And then I see them: lines. Line after line after line rolls in. The waves are pumping, and the winds are offshore.
My anxiety explodes into joy. If it was a cartoon I imagine my body would be glowing in alternating colors as bright stars shot out of me from every angle. In that one moment, I have completely forgotten everything about my past. All I can think to do is praise God and day dream my rides as I run down the hill.
It dawned on me that there will be a moment, where I will get the first sight of my Savior. Except I have no idea what this will be like except I know it will be infinitely more amazing than any feeling I've ever had on earth. One of my favorite verses is 1 Corinthians 2:9-
"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love Him"
That feeling of seeing Jesus and being in His presence is going to be so epic!!!! I look at the phrase "Live for the moment" in an entirely new light. No, i'm not living for this moment right now, nor any moment while I'm here on earth. I'm living for THAT moment. The one where I see Jesus and I'm home, where I was created to be. That's the moment I'm living for.